studying is boring still.. officially
i am weird again.. officially
and twitter has been on constant update more than my blog... officially
i have nothing to blog about to be very honest with you
my life now seems empty and lonely
i have things to look forward to and
i also have things that i wish i can sweep it all under my bed
hidden forever till time forgets it even existed
i know recently i have been on a ride of emotions
and i play the part of the vulnerable little girl that gets the bad treatment
but the truth can't be further than that
i realized, i'm a wreck in emotions
i never really got the grasp of it
it really didn't hit me that hard till this morning
before i close my eyes to rest
i was up interacting then something someone said
literally felt like a punch in the face
a slap in my heart
just started to see that it is true after all...
i am really weird
i always feel like i am a social outcast
yet i am surrounded by people who love and care about me in a way or another
even thought i am wrapped in their love and kindness
i only see minor mistakes that they make or
i make up and consider them as clues that i am unwanted
when in actual fact, i make them cast me out..
then i whine about how lonely i feel and shit
as much as i change, i will only return to being the same me soon
reckless old me
xoxo
charm chew
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