dumb as heck

you were supposed to come along but as always i said things, i made nothing seem like something. maybe i question you like i didn't want you to come, i accused you of being something you're not..

now i have only me to blame, should have known better.. i guess me dying is something to look forward to, at least then i won't ruin it for anyone

i won't ruin it for yi,

i won't ruin it for felicia

i won't ruin it for you

my middle name should have been ruiner

charmaine chew ruiner min

and all i can do now is sigh...

but sighing won't fix anything

its all i can so..

and i reduce myself to tears at night

just to make ME feel better

pitying MYSELF

when in actual fact

i should pity YOU

for having me as a friend

i'm not a good friend

i'm not a good person

i'm nothing worthy

i'm a bitch...

and now i have to pay for it

xoxo

charm chew