experience

you know how people just wake up and do their stuff for the day and move on with their lives?

then after a few years, they feel like they have not done anything with their lives at all

besides working their asses off

heck they probably aren't even happy with their job

they probably hate it from the get go

anyway, you already know that i was looking through the older messages from my older phone

we broke up on the 12th of july

then on the 20th of july

you reintroduced yourself to me

as just a mere friend

it was funny since you did say that you could not bear the thought of being "just friends"

you went on to describe yourself and your love for beautiful interior and speed

to how lavender calms you as it reminds you of yourself as a kid

from then on we went through a lot as friends

from your mom getting a tumor that could kill her

to it being non cancerous and fine

from the tear in you leg due to the accident

to your leg being fine

from your lessons of being happy

to applications of said lessons in life

from enemies to best friends

even through times when you walked under the rain to wait for the bus

all written down in texts

from you wanting to kill alex

to realizing that it was wrong and will always be wrong

up till now

i realize that it has not even been a year since we met

and it seems like years

we had some awesome times

we had a lot of bad times

but through it all

even to date, i still look at you as a person

who can be weak

who can come up clean

cleanse his blog and thoughts

start afresh

become new again

who isn't scared to tell other that you are weak and you need support

xoxo

charm chew

ps: from an e-mail i sent to my friend.. got permission to use it